Man, I finally made up my mind!

After some more consideration, along with a perfect storm of other things (oh hai retail), I have decided that I will stick to my original plan that I had earlier this year and skip out on grad school this time around. Thinking about preparing for the blasted application has gotten me to realizing that shooting for just one school is a poor idea. Plus, I want to see what other programs are out there and research them more before I decide at the end of 2013.

I really want a new job, sock away some serious dough, and maybe even plan a trip to San Francisco for next summer. Something, anything to get me thinking about my life again. Turning 26 has really helped me realize that I need to get my life in gear. I want to start dating, meet new people, and continue to write.

I find myself drifting away from things I used to like and moving onto other things, wanting to grow more as a person. Gaining a hold of my sanity was the biggest game-changer in my life. I find myself looking around my current hopes and dreams and realizing they no longer apply (like the original grad school I wanted to go to). I would love to go to grad school out of state, go out into the big world, and see what it has to show. I want to break further away from who I used to be and keep going forward in my new direction. And the arrow point further than Austin, further than retail... further than I can fathom at this point.

We'll have to see how it goes. But first things first: a new job. That would be the best Christmas gift ever (well, since being asked by my best friend to be a bridesmaid for her wedding).

Time to break the quiet 'round here

Sorry for being gone so long, January was an odd month for me. Coupled with the fact that my application was rejected from Michener, I'm on the search for a job. My hope is that it's a full-time job up north so I have a good excuse to move this year. Atop that, I've been waking up too early the last two mornings and paying for it (doesn't help that I have work those two days also).

A few quick things. I hate to do this, but since plans have changed very much for me this year, I will be unable to do the following: The Year of Revisits and ScriptFrenzy. For the former, I still plan on reviewing A House Like A Lotus in tribute of its rerelease this year. I may even read and review a few other of my all-time favorites, but not going to dedicate each month to one. As for the latter, I'm just not feeling it. I rather do NaNoWriMo again, which may happen again this year, but we'll have to see.

I may give the grad school application business another try later this year, but this time, send in a story I'll be very proud of. And if I do that, I may have to pass on NaNoWriMo then. But again, we'll have to see how things go.

*looks back at old blog entries* I was gonna review Casual Gods? Damn, need to get on that.

Well, you get the idea.

Got news back from Michener...

and I was denied. To be honest, I wish I was completely shocked and throwing a "why me" epic tantrum, but it's just not in me. It's really a case of "oh hai maturity" and also that getting in was very unlikely (message boards equated it with winning the lottery. Not a bad analogy, actually). Not because I suck at writing or anything, I mean, I'm a great writer. Maybe it's a case of "not just yet" or in all honesty, going there would've been a bad idea. Who knows?

So will you apply for grad school ever again? Oh yeah, I still will love to go, but it may now have to wait. In all honesty, I need to get a full-time job and move out first. That was partly the reason I wanted to go so bad. I wanted a huge damn excuse to get myself together and do something with my life. And I feel that was my biggest error in this whole thing. Ah, the old saying "putting all your eggs in one basket" applies here.

Will you apply for Michener again? To be honest, I don't know now. I feel, in a strange way, I might've applied there and hoped for admission to prove to myself that I'm a good writer. Sure, the money is great, but I really didn't know a ton about the program and its professors. I mean, it could be a decent school and going somewhere else would've been better, for all I f***ing know.

What now, Frustrated Lady Writer? Time to just write and find a full-time job that will take me further north from here. As for grad school, it may have to wait.

Thanks to those who wished me well and also helped me with my application. Time to dust myself off and move on to other things.