I have no voice, but I do have words...

It's been almost twenty-four hours since I had all four of my wisdom teeth removed. One had to be dug out (since it never surfaced, like the other three), so go fig that its former location hurts the most. I got to keep them and they are all intact (one is a bit chipped), it's weird how such things can cause so much grief later on in life.

I'm trying not to talk as much so the holes can heal up and I don't form those horrible dry sockets. Thank God for words... and head/hand gestures.

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So, I decided for the better, to drop the Sci-Fi class. The paper, among other things, was preventing the class from being worthwhile. But I did try the paper, but I guess I may need to go back to Basic Essay-Writing 101. Not that makes me feel bad or anything, but it never hurts to take a refresher course.

Addendum: I did say the last time that it wasn't an option, yet I forgot to mention that I had considered it when I dropped the Fiction class. I just didn't do it at the time.

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I got the tarot cards! I also found a lovely little bag to keep them in. It's green and looks Irish with a trisket stitched in gold. For some odd reason, I don't fear the cards. They actually feel positive and approachable! I guess it irradiates the happiness that I have for them. I do random readings, but nothing serious.

I'm a Christian (Unitarian influenced by Taoism), a fairly open-minded one. I was raised believing tarot cards were evil and etc. But I honestly don't think tarot cards are evil at all. I get nothing like that from my cards, let alone any decks in general. Yet, tarot cards will not replace God and prayer. No, not at all! I love God too much, :D .

I credit Aeclectic Tarot (http://www.aeclectic.net/tarot/) for their articles and card interpretations, especially all the different spreads. They schooled me good. Thanks y'all!

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I had an idea running around in my head for a while. It's time I put the sucker on paper. Wish me luck!

I leave you, listening to Celine Dion's "It's All Coming Back to Me Now"? Lemme switch it... ah, "Satellite" by Guster! Yet another indie band I support!

Regards,
Lindsey

Am I still a writer?

I heard back from a longtime friend and telling her about what's been going on in my life since we last spoke had got me thinking about the future of my writing. I haven't touched it since late August, that's when all the issues have come to a head.

I now arrive at a big hurdle: writing a paper for my Sci-Fi class. I could up and quit the class, but that's not an option. This is the chance to pull myself up and try again. Put all my mad skillz to the test. My reward: a lovely deck of tarot cards. Of course, I must get it finished before my surgery, so I can recover from it without much stress.

I guess the title is the big question I've been asking myself for a while. I still call myself one. It is a part of me, yet no longer the dominating force. Guess it's wait and see.

Yea, two days until the first day of fall!

I leave you, rocking out to Squeeze's "Cool for Cats" (in my head)...

Regards,
Lindsey

Man, I need to update more often...

Wow, I had to drop an English class. That is unheard of... for me. But, it is for the best that I take a step back and look over my life as it is right now. I've never been this self-aware before, which is both exhilarating and infuriating.

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Because of my stress, and other things likely, I'm now ill! I can't have this, not when my surgery is two weeks away! I hope it goes away soon...

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As for school reading, I'm eager to begin The Great Gatsby. Also, my editing textbook... which reads like any textbook: boring and methodical. But hey, an AP style open-book quiz is this Monday! XP

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Going to the counselor has revealed that pretty much everything my parents and my sister have been telling me for years... is valid. Well, looks like I should've listened to everyone, huh? :P

I don't know if I still want to be a writer, or even pursue my current degree plan. But, I'll have to ride out this semester and see what happens.

Special thanks go out to my family and my friends for being supportive and loving, and a salute to my counselor for helping me get back on my feet.

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Recently, I found a poster promoting Fear of Music by Talking Heads. I should be getting it soon! :D

It's my reward for going to counseling.

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I leave you, rocking out to nothing... well, maybe to the sound of my AC, if I can detect a rhythm.

Regards,

Lindsey

P.S.: I'm having font issues. It'll be fixed the next time around...

What the heck I've been up to these days...

The Labor Day weekend is coming to a quick end, alas. I didn't really get to enjoy it very much.

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When school began, the stress of my writing issues (along with other fun quarterlife crisis issues) came to a head. I managed to get myself together, but yeah... this anxiety is too much to keep fighting alone. So, I made an appointment with a counselor on campus. I feel better already.

Despite my anxiety, my classes are going to be a blast. I'm getting to hang out with tons of familiar faces (including some very close friends), read some goods books and of course... talk to some cool professors. They're all intelligent, well-read and experienced people. So, at least, all is good on that front.

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After years of wanting, I finally got VH-1 Classic. The channel had an '80's video marathon, so I tried my best to keep up with it and watch some of my favorite artists. I had to bypass Genesis due to work, but I got to see:

Lindsey Buckingham: "Go Insane" and "Holiday Road" (!)
Fleetwood Mac: "Hold Me", "Little Lies" and "Seven Wonders" (!)
Billy Joel: "Pressure"
Squeeze: "Hourglass"
Talking Heads: "And She Was" and "Once in A Lifetime"

Their Talking Heads video choices were good, yet lacking one major video... no "Burning Down the House"! WTH?!

And yes, after years of accepting the fact I would never see it on TV, I finally saw "Little Lies". Man, my happiness reached a limit I didn't think existed. The video is so much more... green than seeing it on YouTube.

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Current school reading: The Age of Innocence by Edith Wharton and a sci-fi anthology edited by Ursula K. Le Guin.

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Thank God and everyone else in Heaven for the citizens of New Orleans and the rest of the Gulf Coast. They all got out before Gustav hit. Looks like things aren't going to be as bad as predicted: see here.

That's, of course, fantastic news.

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There's nothing much else to say for the time being. So I leave you, rocking out to the ending of the Mavericks's "What A Crying Shame"...

Regards,
Lindsey

The night before...

Classes at my university start tomorrow and I'm psyching myself up for it. It's exciting, yet I'm nervous. I just want things this semester to go right this time.

Not much reading, but I will do that later on this evening.

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I finished reading The Opposite of Fate by Amy Tan. Go get this book! It's funny, insightful and comforting. Ms. Tan is a wonderful essayist and reading this book makes me want to read her other books. Now that is how a good writer works.

Good writers make you want to read more books and enjoy their other works, not make you hate reading for months... like a certain book I tried reading a year ago that I refuse to name... :P

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I know in my last post I said I was going to have a separate entry regarding... something. Sorry, I did have it up but I took it down. Nothing serious, I just thought it didn't add to my blog. To make up for it, I'm going to post the last of the fun facts about myself.

Fun Facts, the Conclusion:

-My favorite musical is The Phantom of the Opera.

-Besides Editors, I also "indie endorse" Vienna Teng. Good God, this woman is amazing!

-My favorite Silent Hill game is a tie between the first and the second one. But if I had to choose one, I would go with the first one.

-My favorite recent teen book is Jay Asher's Th1rten R3asons Why. I have a feeling that I'll be adding John Green's books on this list soon.

-One day, I would love to own a teal Fender Stratocaster.

-My favorite season is autumn, the one I was born in!

-I can read long-winded Victorian novels, but not long-winded modern novels. WTH?

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That is it for now. I leave you, rocking out to thoughts on possible to-do lists.

Regards,
Lindsey

Some thoughts...

I would like to throw a thought out into the world and see what happens.

Recently, I've been dealing with writing issues, for example: I think my ideas aren't original and that I have nothing new to say. I thought about it last night and I'm pretty sure that writing isn't going to be a full-time career for me. To be honest, I never saw myself having a huge body of work, something to the extent of Stephen King or Dean Koontz.

Am I being too harsh on myself? Perhaps. Do I have something to contribute, like everyone else? Who knows...

God, I hate having this quarterlife crisis...

Keep in mind I didn't say I was giving up being a writer. I'm still pondering what to do. Like I said, I hate being indecisive about my career. Hell, about my life for that matter!

But, I have to take it one day at a time. I have to keep reminding myself of that.

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I'm going to make a second post regarding another topic later on tonight. I split the posts just to make it easier to read...

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I leave you, rocking (?) to Celine Dion's "Immortality". To those who cringe, yeah I know, but I love this song. It's sweet, plus the Bee Gees sing in it!

Regards,
Lindsey

OMG, I'm writing!

Okay, sarcasm in the title. But, I have to confess: chatspeak is funny. I chuckle at the silly acronyms and other slang. How far have we come in this day and age...

Well, as the title implies... I'm working on a short story of mine that's been hanging out and doing nothing for about eight months. I have plans to turn this mofo into a novella (or novel, God help me). I have an idea where I want this thing to go, but I have to keep at it. Lord knows that persistence is the... however the saying goes.

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Because I'm bored, I'm going to list more fun facts about myself:

-My favorite comic book superhero is Batman. Next is Spiderman.

-Who was my favorite band before Talking Heads? Before Fleetwood Mac?
It was Genesis. For this, I thank my father and his letting me borrow his battered copy of Invisible Touch.

-On supporting indie bands, I officially "endorse" Editors. They rock. Go and buy their CDs, dammit!

-I want to read Watchmen so badly.

-A Wrinkle in Time and The Bluest Eye are among some of the titles that I read in one day.

-My favorite Shakespeare play is The Tempest.

-I have a character that I named after the late Warner Bros. animator Chuck Jones. This was back when I wanted to be an animator.

-I saw these movies multiple times in theaters: Titanic (3), Chicago (2) and Silent Hill (2).

-My favorite Saturday morning cartoon when I was a teen was Science Court. Does anyone remember this show?

-I have seen Fleetwood Mac, Steely Dan, The Police and Lindsey Buckingham live. Which was the best concert?
Lindsey Buckingham. He played "Holiday Road". 'Nuff said...

-My opinion on Meat Loaf's Bat Out of Hell: silly and histrionic. Speaking of unpopular music opinions... I really don't like Rumours.

-Despite my opinion on Bat Out of Hell, I do like "You Took the Words Out of My Mouth (Hot Summer Night)".

-I know I'm hating a book when I think "if the apocalypse occurred right now, would I care if all the characters died?" and my response is a tactless "hell no".

Seriously, last one...
-I used to do a killer Ace Ventura impression.

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Okay, enough of wasting space...? I'm reading, writing and living life. How about you all? How are you all doing? Hope it's well on your side of things.

I leave you, rocking out to the thought that I finally possess a copy of Jerry Harrison's Casual Gods.

Regards,
Lindsey